The same game, of writing and broadcasting my feelings for the world to know and share. I don't feel wrong sharing my feelings with the world. The world doesn't know me and if my friends are reading this, well more power to you. You'll just know me better!
So, let's fast forward about a year from my last blog. I *think* almost two years. I'm most definitely not the person that I used to be. I finally made assistant store manager at Starbucks and I'm just waiting to move on and be a manager which should happen any day now. I'm also finally using my degree at the radio station next door to my Starbucks which worked out conveniently. I'm doing voice overs now which is REALLY cool. I'm definitely blessed.
For reasons which I cannot understand, for the last two days I was miserably depressed. So unhappy and riddled with anxiety that I was having chest pains. At midnight last night, everything just mysteriously disappeared. I can't explain it other than to say that I had prayed heavily for everything to stop and it just... did. I hope that it doesn't happen again. Although I never thought that depression was a joke, it gave me a much more realistic view of not being able to get out of bed because I didn't want to face the world. Of course I *did* face the world, but I surely didn't want to. I would count the hours at work saying, "please, just help me get through. Please just let this night pass quickly." And of all the nights that I wanted to get out of there quickly, wouldn't you know we ended up staying until 1:00 because they turned off our water in the middle of us trying to close the store down!! It took them a long time to finally turn it back on. However, we got everything done and in the process we ended up leaving at 1:00 am. Ewwwww.
I'm going to write my next thought in a different blog. Adios, amigos.