http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/ Random Thoughts of Mandy Fri, 30 Nov 2007 01:00:01 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2007. http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/88.html Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:56:26 GMT So I moved into an apartment, finally, out of my mom's house and I have a roommate.My roommate has a truly screwed up system of how he decides to call people, "friend."He has one best friend. Fine. That makes sense. However, everyone else is not a FRIEND, but either an acquaintance or a "close acquaintance." I fall into the "close acquaintance" category. This is the most retarted bullshit I've ever heard!! Now granted, during my depression kick, he was very caring and said, "I just want my roommate to be happy." Very nice and sweet, and all. However, I'm just ready to disappear for a day. I... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=88 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/87.html Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:46:51 GMT And I'm back in the game.The same game, of writing and broadcasting my feelings for the world to know and share. I don't feel wrong sharing my feelings with the world. The world doesn't know me and if my friends are reading this, well more power to you. You'll just know me better!So, let's fast forward about a year from my last blog. I *think* almost two years. I'm most definitely not the person that I used to be. I finally made assistant store manager at Starbucks and I'm just waiting to move on and be a manager which should happen any day now. I'm also finally using my degree at the radio... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=87 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/86.html Sun, 31 Dec 2006 00:04:24 GMT This is a big time. A brand new year. I haven't written in my journal for awhile and so it is time...now. I'm in a rough position. I'm crazy about this amazing guy. We were in love once upon a time, but youth and time tore us apart. In a 12 year period, we have "found" each other three times everytime that we lost touch. This very last time, we've managed to remain in touch. However, I don't know if these new feelings are ones that are new, or ones that have remained. I am certain these can't be the same feelings that a 14 year old girl once felt. There has been too much to change me, to... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=86 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/85.html Mon, 11 Sep 2006 01:56:24 GMT All it takes is one stupid ass guy and my mother's dual personality comes out. There are all kinds of moments in the past in my life where I remember that she has wronged me. I've been treated like garbage, I've been yelled at and called names and I hate her. I hate her with an intensity so vibrant! And I realize that it doesn't hurt her any, but at the same time there is the reverse that if you hate someone with a passion, you have to care about them to be able to hate them. So she has this boyfriend that she's been seeing since March. He's over here all the time, he never leaves. He has... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=85 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/84.html Sun, 10 Sep 2006 06:42:02 GMT Well, for starters, my manager has left. He went to take a store at another mall. It's not even a store, actually. It's a kiosk. Bless his heart! Those kiosks suck. I hope he lives up to the great challenges that are set before him and can win those folks over. I get to work with him next week, that's a plus! Secondly, a new manager has come in. I don't know what to think of her. All I know is that she treats me like an ASM. I have the title, but I want the pay that goes along with it. Because I was promoted to assistant store manager back in June while Tim was still in the store, I didn't... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=84 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/83.html Sun, 10 Sep 2006 06:11:07 GMT Dear Love, I never got over you. When you told me that you didn't love me anymore, I never let go. Love, I don't believe that we were meant to be apart. Maybe my love over the years drifted and seemed to go away, but after time, the old feelings started creating themselves again. The roads that once separated us brought us together again and refused to let us go. I believe in you, Love. Love, you are captured in a moment that you need to get out of. You need to set yourself free and just fly. Fly into my arms, Love. The arms that are patiently waiting for you, who cares for you, who is... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=83 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/82.html Wed, 23 Aug 2006 05:31:27 GMT This girl came into work yesterday and started talking about all of the benefits that Starbucks provides. She was asking about the insurance, she was asking about hours, she was asking all these questions about school reimbursement and so forth. So I did the typical thing and said, "Would you like an application?" What did she say back to me? "No, no. I have my degree." WTF!?!? I just looked at her and told her I did as well and that I was working my way up the ladder. She said, "that's good!" I have never wanted to deck a person as much as I wanted to deck her. To infer that I am... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=82 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/81.html Wed, 23 Aug 2006 05:01:55 GMT I'm sick of my job. I'm totally, utterly tired of it. I believe right now this feeling is quite temporary. I have just had no time off to BREATHE. It seems to me when I'm having issues, I should have some help. However, people don't understand I'm dealing with a lot right now and I feel sometimes like I'm more of the store manager than my regular store manager. I'm doing and managing a lot. I enjoy my position and I enjoy every challenge that my manager gives me. He puts a lot on me. He knows to challenge me and to help me grow and learn everything that I need to know. However, sometimes... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=81 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/80.html Fri, 11 Aug 2006 06:49:30 GMT Wow, I feel amazingly lonely right now. Here I am trying to make it up the ladder at work and I'm facing some of the largest challenges that I've faced in a really long time. I have a team full of negativity that I really can't do anything about. I understand there are factors in some of their lives that they are dealing with that affect who they are as human beings. However, they don't have to make a whole ordeal about it in the store. There are a few folks that I really trusted and had a whole lot of faith in. I wanted to see them succeed, I wanted to see them move up and really take... (more) http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/comments?id=80 http://lilstar026.blogdrive.com/archive/79.html Sun, 30 Jul 2006 07:13:20 GMT In many ways, I have changed considerably. I have been reading over my blogs from the past two years. Where has that person gone? What have they become? Something considerably different from who they are now! There is still an innocense about the person from two years ago. She is naive and getting ready to graduate from college. The person now, has graduated from college and is in the midst of paying back college loans and making something of herself in the world. Granted, nothing doing with the degree, but something I'm completely content with and happy doing. I have to laugh at my blogs... 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